Hey! This post would be slightly different ! (:
Quotes :D
"Now, when you are desperate, you could only be tossed unto th wheel of Chance."
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
"We have too many high sounding words, and too few actions that correspond with them."
"Only when you let go, you will get freedom."

This is nice :
"Experience is a good teacher, but she sends in terrific bills."

:D
I'll Post soon yea!
Sorry umm, cause i've been busy with audi nowadays :D

Sometimes, i think i should let go.
You and your attitude .
Everyone's having tht face -.-
Everyone just goes for people tht is good for them .
They'll nvr care about anyone's feelings,
cause t them, it doesn't concern themselves.
Well, i started linking th events together,
tht drew me a picture .
Care, you dont show it.
Concern, you dont express it.
I seriously dont intend t tell you this ,
but, i believe, you can do much better.
It's difficult t express wht i am thinking in words.
i am gonna miss those days.


Today was great.
Although i hated th morning, cause something happened.
But th afternoon was fantastic. (:
My girls made my day great,
&he made my day fabulous [:
They celebrated my birthday earlier, i mean, very early thn th actual date was.
Eating a little part of th cake, i thought of an idea t stain his face using th cream .
LOL. So this was how th cream war started. haha laughs .
We took th cream and stain each others face, and hands, and ears, and neck LOL
Fun bodoh! hoho. My hair is so oily ><
My body's so oily T.T
But it's worth th fun ^^
Thanks for tht uh ! <3

Btw, we've gotten results back -.-
Guess wht class i am going t ?
You'd be surprised. I'm serious.
If you see th way i behave in class, you'd be surprised.
I didn't expect i'd get into this class either.
It's 2E1. -.-'
Wth, i wanted 2E2 ==' zzz.
Those posted t 2E1 next year is like, omg ==
So damn fxcking, * .
zzz. umm nvm, i believe god has his plans for me .
But well, t think of it, god's really good t me.
I think i am th last person t get into 2e1 in 1e1.
O.o, confusing . LOL .
Let me explain , teacher said only helf th class gets into 2e1,
and i am th 20th position . yepps .
Actually not me only. There's alot others too .

Actually, it might not be a right start.
But i'll make it th right&perfect end.
Reversedlove :[
I am worn out .
I didn't expect tht either yea ?problems aroused whenever one is solved .

You'll never reach it,
silly you, still thinking of getting hold of it ?
If it's so tiring with me, thn forget it .
If it's tht difficult, forget it.
If it's tht frustrating, forget it.
This path i've chosen .
Pushing hard, moving on.

Sorry for not posting for days!
I'll just post for wht i remembered haha .
Fuel th last time was at classrooms, as usual,
and it was about peer pressure .
LOL. I wrote something similar t someone .
Umm, yea. Something i really feel tht, was peer pressure.
thn service . With laode [:
Skipped serving, hoho:D
Audrey&sister keep saying i ps them :D
LOL.
Thn monday, slacked in sch.
No lessons, so bored ><><
i dont wanna e1 anyways, haha.
Super stress. Teachers stresses us cause we're e1 ==
I wanna e2, but not e3, hoho ^^
Do hope i'll at least get into e2.
e1, i dont really hope, but not tht bad as e3 :)
Yea, after sch, went home.
Sm's institution was correct LOL.
They were there . LOL.
Their group? yea. She looked frustrated.
Mayb she's down on luck?
Always seeing thm in sch. LOL.
Ok, enough of all this (:
I'll audi nw ^^ bye (:

You have your way with people, not me.
I broke my promise with god ):
I told him i'll be guaiguai this year :(
And, i'm playing th bad guy again. -.-
But i do still thank god for everything.
If he haven't gave me wht i have now,
I guess i'd really been have mislead.

Yesterday (:
Ncc was fairly boring -.-
Had t drill for very long.
And my leg seemed so heavy today.
I had difficulty lifting them up :(
After th torturing drills, we had pt and games.
Pt was terrible.
We had t do push ups on th damn hot ground.
I feel like i was touching th hundred-degree oven ==
Damn bloody hot la ==
After push ups our hands all red ><
Then games was kinda fun .
Not tht bored aye. We played volleyball.
And yea, th last part of volleyball they asked one part b guy,
which i couldn't really remember wht his name was, t pair up with me.
And they was teasing me all th way :(
Cause sir cf asked him t chose which girl he want.
Cf was on purpose @.@ LOL
Then ms lee asked me t go.
They keep oh here oh there...
Yea, yea. Shouldn't go in so much about it.
Yea after playing volleyball, we played captainball.
Was normal.
After dismissal at 545, saw keith, thn asked him isit waiting for warran and shawn. LOL.
And he said me.. Cause i kept asking his competition wht time end :D
Too despo for someone accompany me t bus stop LOL.
Then walked t coffeshop t meet zhenwei, jonathan, and pt.
On th way, i realised he's gotten 4As. -.-
Disgrace t me ! I gotten only one A.
Reached coffeeshop, keith wanted t walk another way. LOL. no point.
He is meeting zhenwei wht, not pt LOL.
Thn asked him go find zhenwei. Thn yea, he came along.
But i was like, wth -.- All boys.
Yea, on th way t bus stop, pt told them something disgusting.
Which he claimed tht it was from bjm . LOL. blabla .
And it's fun targeting balls :D LOL.
Btw, can anyone get me a message partner?
I am bored stiff w/o receiving messages :(

This ain't how it ought t be.

HAPPY BELATED T SISTER! (L)
For th sake of you two, i'll leave.
We might appear as if nothing happened,
but these few days, i am so fxcking sensitive.
I miss my days ; where have they gone?
Well, but now i'm still positive towards you.
And of course, i dont wish tht one day,
I'd be negative towards you and your actions.
Your actions simply doesn't go with your word.
Seriously, i'd rather not believe wht you say.
Fullstop .

Sorry for not updating these few days!
I should start on sunday (:

SUNDAY[:
Fuel at classrooms at th forth level!
So small k! I want th summit! Big and tall enough!
Yea, and after fuel went t have a grab of cup noodles at 7-11 :D
So awkward k! So many people walking around yet me and jasmine was eating there.
LOL. Laughs^^ Jasmine says her aunt just had her shop done, so she needs helpers,
how i wished i could work there! But think i too young luhhs :(
We had pre-service activities.
And it was t sign a paper of wht requires.
And th first requirement was t get a person who is born in october t sign.
And my sister was one of them.
Yepps, and they went up, knew tht my sissy was having her birthday falling on tht day,
sang those october babies a birthday song^^
It was fun (:
Preach title was 'FOLLOW ME' .
And, this week's verse of th day was 1corinthains 11:1 .
Why do we need t be a good example?
1)Our accountability t god .(1corinthains10:31)
Whtever you eat or drink or whtever you do,
do it for th glory of god . (:
Whtedver you do,
you're accountable t god.
*Rebellion(eg. tattooing, smoking) is in favour of th Satan.
2)Our accountability t our fellow believers .(1corinthains10:32)
(Pastor derrick said he was playing mahjong and a believer came, and was shocked t see him doing tht.)
Do not cause anyone t stumble,
whether jews, greeks, or th church of god.
3)Our accountability t th pre-believers.(1corinthains10:33)
Even as i try t please everybody in every way.
For i am not seeking my own good but th good of many,
so tht they may be saved.

And i love th hadwriting for this sermon ^^
Nicer thn wht usually is [:
After church, used comp awhile, thn went for wishing sister happy&blessed bd[:
Tht's how my day ends :]

MONDAY[:
Whole day was chionging audi so nothing t post about^^
Laughed like crazy two times this day.
LOL.
First time was tagging hearts with cpl,
Thn he say wht blablabla..
Thn i replied ' SUA , GO HOSPITAL SEE ME. I GO BANG WALL LIAO'
Thn i exited th room^^ funny bodoh! LOL
Laugh like hell. :D cheat his feeling^^
Second time, again was tagging hearts.
Then he challenged me t brk . LOL.
Thn i accept, but ask him t brk, waste my monehh.
LOL. was privately doing 'quarreling' , but ltr on he said in public,
Thn another cpl asked us not t brk. LOL
But we both know we wont brk LOL.
This time round is cheat their feeling. LOL
Laughed crazily. FUNNY LA! :D
yepps, i said nth t talk but i posted quite long. Haha.

TODAY[:
Woke at around 12 noon. LOL
Messaged till about 12.20 .
Audi's under patch till 330==
So long can == zzz.

*will continue this post ltr^^

sorrysorrysorrysorrysorry.
Take it as i didn't mean it .

HELLO (:
yesterday slept at 11plus, but i promised t pei someone till tht person sleeps, hoho.
But i slept before tht person did (:
Thn today woke at 9.52 ,
had breakfast, played around with blackie,
and went t on lappy (:
Yesterday, someone say bo mood :(
我好惭愧。因为他是看到了我写的东西，才没心情。
对不起。其实，我知道，我也有不对的时候。。
so tired, they aren't even there for you when you need it.
Why bother caring so much for them?
When you're in trouble, no one would come forward t help.
Trust me. Really. Forget it, selfishness.

Let me go on audi alrights! (: ,
Btw, we just lvled our ring t lvl 9! (:
Would be editing this post ltr ^^

I realised, it's starting t fade away.
This was how i wanted.
Either or have t do it.
Glad tht i took th first step.
I am afraid, i will go back in tht way.
Idw go tht way ):
Anyone please save me? D:
I scared leii ):
It ain't so easy t resist tht temptation~~
And bloody bastard!!! You're dead man.
Promise le never keep t it, -.-
Rest in peace, fxcktard. :D
Sighs, everyone is turning their back against me.
Well, i cant control you all, so it's up t you.
I ain't angry. Dissappointed rather..

Yesterday chionged audi, lvl!!! finally^^
Happy know! :D
haha:D well, i shall now go chiong alr ^^
Bye! will post up soon, cause exams ended! (:
And there is no school till thursday!! hooray (:
Bye(L)

I have thought it over, again, repeatingly.
It's still better if we keep a distance yea?
Without you all, i felt happier.
Maybe when it's time t let go, i should.
I am not thinking too much, i am just having too much.
Hopefully, it doesn't affect my EOY.
Idk why, i can be so dissappointed over you.
So dissapointed. Your action dont mean it.
I thought, i expected, i wished& hoped, but nothing happened.

Maths paper was okay.
But after th paper i realised i had some mistakes ):
After paper went home, okay~.
Laode keep say some thing? LOL.
Opps, ps. kick again :P
Sorry for you seemed t be in great pain :D
Today, bus stop, ILY. LOL.
And i am lazy t update photos D:
And, i have no mood t play D:

Cheers girl, there ain't anything t be upset about.
Anyway, you're not so weak .
Stop fretting over it .

I AM SO FRUSTRATED.
MY LINKS ARE GONE.
MY SKIN ARE GONE.
EVERYTHING IS GONE.
MF! WTH HAPPENED T MY BLOG !

tomorrow's english paper. and idk wht t revise for ):
i supposed english is a subject tht cant be revised?
hmmmphs D:

i am getting too bored out of it.
Vent your anger all on me.
Dont worry, i wont retaliate, neither getting angry (:
Cause i wont care anymore.

Randomly picked one skin one used it.
Edited abit, but many things are gone ):

This should be th end (: will post up soon (:
Jy for EOY alrights!! :D

hello (:
I wont be posting soon cause of exams ):
But i should be posting around 4-5 days later,
cause i needa concentrate on revising .
See i am GUAI. LOL. have been quite busy th past few days,
And this post will go according t wht i remember (:

it ain't everything.
Life still can go on even if you dont exists in my world.
I supposed it's too late t turn everything over, no matter wht, i wont give up:)
I am just quite bothered by wht others say. But i wont dissapoint people around me ^^

School was fine. Nothing special. But goeg paper was incompleted.
Geog was easy, but most of us didn't have got enough time t complete it.
As a result, my 10 marks flew~
After th paper studied with xy. She teached me some science. Thn went home.
At bus stop,was waiting for bus when i looked into one 43 bus and saw sister joan(:
Waved hello and yepps. She's in th singapore girl's soccer team, and she plays th piano too.
And she's a great leader in our section (:
And i am down with flu == SNEEEEEEEEZE!

And it's all fading away. Typically, it seemed so magical.
Words, == are empty with no meanings.
Yea, maybe. Idk. Maybe i learnt too many lessons, about not telling too much.
Thts why i seemed so sensitive now. I have done my part. A disaster, 091009.
A complete disaster.
It wouldn't be fine, cause i am hearing too much of you.

Pathetic me for having a disastrous day.
Firstly, geog paper was th start of th disasterS , and thn another disaster tht lead t a chain of worse disasters.
And it lasted long, so it was a disastrous day.
Maybe i have thought it through.
And thanks for those who gave me good advices. (:

not only one, neither two, it's been alot.
I too wished we could be like them, but i guessed is impossible.
You can always hide it from me, not from god.
Stupid me sentencing myself t death ):

:D

Somehow, i realised whtever i wants, god knows it.
And he gave it t me. Previously, I wanted us t patch, we did.
I wanted us not so close, and we weren't tht close.
I needed someone by me, and i really do have.
But th only thing different was tht he did in his way, which surprised me.
Not only did he encouraged me, he gracefully continued t love me. (:
Count this a testimony, cause it really is. (:

hello people(L)
Actually i ain't supposed t use comp , but i supposed i can control myself(:
Hmmm. School was fine, but MT paper 2 wasn't fun. I bet th whole class would flunk it.
After th paper, everyone said they didn't get wht they was reading.
And yea, i really didn't get th whole of two passages.
As for th questions, i could only pray hard tht i could at least achieve a b4 ):
But i doubt it'll happen. MCQ was fine and it wasn't tht tough, but open ended, is screwed . hehe:D
School was released at 2, due t something held up by ms gwee.
Went t class, thn walked t school gate with LAODE and lingkai after going t th restroom .
Then LAODE walked home towards right when we walked towards right t our bus stop .
At bus kept thinking of something, but i helped lingkai t 'dispose' wht she need not bring,
cause she always bring things tht th day does not require. Tht's so heavy k! No wonder her bag always so huge :P
And this few days i have been low, so if i were t do anything tht upsets anyone, i'm sorry.
I just want t apologise t one person, although i am normal infront tht person, i am struggling inside .
btw, idk wht you're doing right behind me, resulting in people calling me tht .
But infront of me, you seemed t be great.
It's as if i dont know, i ain't a kid, not so easy fooled .
Dont treat me as one, cause i am more.

Shall end here ^^ busy with other things (:
Bye earthlings! will post soon if i have th time^^

how i wished, you didn't appear in my life.

Today went t church early. Fuel back t hostel! :D
Service was about grace in god. :D
Then worship was fun ^^
Then sister gwen preached something tht really touched me yepps:)
Cant remember wht it was. Think was 'no matter wht you're going through, thick and thin, hold on t god, cause he's th only one who gives you strength.'
And this really made my day^^
A down and troubled day, became a great day for me (:
I do really agree, god gives me strength at th lowest point of life,
and tht made me not give up .
& i believe, tht god'll always be there for me, whether i need or not. ;D
Went t central, eateateat, thn bused back home. (:
Go home slacked awhile, played audi, tried buying channels, but t no avail.
So dont buy lo. Thn went t play lo. yepps.
Thanks sister jenn and buzz grp friends for praying for me (:
colossians 3;23 "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for th Lord, not for men, "
Btw, we just lvled our ring, again! (:

Bye(L)

All you cared, yourself. You didn't gave a damn for how i feel.
All thanks t you, a hundred thanks, fxcker.
& idk how, whowhowho, i should believe. you or them?
Side on th majority? idk.
He's been really fine. really.

& yesterday was so random k! Why you say i still like him. zzz.
So random. ): anyhow you.
Today kor suddenly message wo? haha, quite surprised ^^
But glad though (:
Nothing much t say anyway(: so should be ending here:)
Edit this post tomorrow, or post another alrights! (:

This time round, i regretted.
ZZZ. No vulgarities please~
Emotional roller coaster.

laughs, posting this i had t control from not typing vulgarities. LOL
Just something, this week was bloody fking atrocious. But whtever.
I'll get used t it. And sorry bastard, i kept calling you bastard. hehe:D
And I wna this blog t go private, cause idw random people t read. ):
But it's so troublesome. ): So fxcked up today. I really suspect i got split personality.
At times, i was so happy, 1 second later, I was so troubled. Wth -.-'
It ain't like before. Where has tht cheerful me went. ZZZ. Have got totally no mood today.
At english lesson teacher went up and down, firstly t take her notebook,
Then Safety pins for joshua cause his buckle broke, :D
During when she wasn't around, i wrote something in my organiser.
Something really summarised, which speaks of wht i am feeling today.
Btw, English paper today wasn't tht difficult although i wasn't too sure about th formal writing. LOL
Went home, used comp, played audi, asked him along, and lvled our ring. (:
Hmmm, btw, i was caught for skipping malay .
And tht bloody fxcking ms wong so kpo, ask me write this and tht.
Thn give her attitude, ended up rangen scold me==
Ok, but, i am giving WML attitude, not rangen, nor anyone else.
Laughs, we were saying tht ms gan was there, so we didn't argue much.
We left her face, haha^^
But really, if mr rangen and ms gan weren'y there, i guess i would have ignored WML.
Kpo kia, talk cxck. LOL. Catchcatchcatch=='
zzz. i really suspect i am suffering from depression. LOL. kidding hehe:D
Cause whtever tht happens, i still have god with me.
And god will protect me from everything^^
He wont put me into something i couldn't overcome, i dw dissapoint people around me.
'At th lowest point of time, we sees only one set of footprints, because god is carrying us!'
Praise him(L).
Yawns(!) So bored, guess this is th shortest post currently.
Will post if i have time tomorrow Earthlings^^
我今天的情绪真的很不好。要转校是应为我想开始另一个生活。
可是，我能办得到吗？累了。就战时交托给主吧。好累得我想休息了。